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Somehow time is drifting .....Yesterday suddenly when i looked at the calendar i realized that in another 55 days ..i will complete 2 years in hyderabad .....My heartbeats stopped and i actually couldnt feel my heart pounding for a while.2 long years !!!!!!And i still feel like a child lost in the bewilderness ,floundering ,scuttling.
I stilll love to loose myself in the bygone years ,moments and people almost imagining that everything and everyone just the same when i left them . I keep travelling back and forth in time talking to people in my thoughts. I still ponder if anything has actually happened in these last two years ...i am still there rushing through those alleys with my college bag ....lest i get late for a lecture .Seems like time has stopped long long back or may be its just that i dont want it to budge.When i open my eyes in the morning ...i take time to realize where i am .It is as if those voices are still resonating in my ears calling me aloud...SUSH GET UP !!!!!! WE ARE LATE FOR THE LECTURE.......As i get up ,and head for the bathroom ....again ....i start dreaming ......we never had the concept of a attached bathroom in the college ....we had common bathrooms ....and then LIPSA ,MAGGI would always be there , begging an excuse .....5 MINUTES ...HO JAYEGA ...For the lazybirds like me ....i used to be last in the queue and heavens forbid if PRIYAJITA got in ..... you had no chance whatever .....
One night a few ladies had seen AMERICAN PIE -5.The next morning i saw someone brushing at the wash basin .We looked at each other ,we hadnt uttered a word ,and we burst out laughing(Rememeber the running race).
And i also remember the evening when the most innocuous character of my batch (one lady,i wont name because she is married ) was forced into this dirty world of lust and desire . yeah something in her had compellled her to go and get the BASIC INSTINCT CD from the local CD shop all alone.HATS OFF to her .One big thing for a woman like her.

As i take my cab ...to office everything starts moving behind .....everything starts blurring .....and i again start dreaming ......CANTEEN ...that was our favourite hangout.It was probably the most happeneing place in the entire college because you would be sleeping in the class and once you got there you suddenly got that elixir of life,familiar faces,seniors ,juniors ranting about "COUNTERSTRIKE" or the P*** movie they saw last night,.It had the flavour and happeningness of a fish market i would say ,i loved it.Irrespective of any engagements a visit to the canteen was a must .Myself and vasu .....we used to savor the idli and tea there ... today also i have the same breakfast ....but something is seriously missing .If you are going through my blog i would certainly suggest you something ....everything in life is beautiful ..even the smallest things ....but most of the times we dont realize them, not because we dont have the knack to do so ..rather because .. we are alone most of the times ,we surround ourshelves with so much of us that we see only ourshelves .We dont have someone who could say ...look thats so amazing.The worst is enjoyable in the company of the best.Alone we are nothing.
My eyes are almost closing down ....not that i am sleepy ,i dont want to look at the disconcerting "Tamasha" outside.
Amartya,vasu,harish,krithika,abhijeet ......my five close buddies..
Amartya----alias GOPABANDHU DASH---FAMOUS PHILOSOPHER
harish-----HARIA---GUY NEXT DOOR
VASU------HUMARI BEHENJI----THE APPLE OF EVERY GUY'S EYES
KRITHIKA----SEXY MAMA----MADDU DON
ABHIJEET----GHOSH ----THE MADMAN
SUSH---LAILA----(I OWE THIS NAME TO MR.DON DAS....i am quite thankful to you sir ...my classmates still address me by this name,and i will never forget the day you coined this phrase...prefinal year hallday..heheh)

It is impossible to come into terms with the present .My heart is stuck somewhere in the labyrinths of my college.I keep on pining and pining......................I get down from the cab leaving the comfort of the AC and the sound of the radio FM behind me until it fades into nothingness.An auto stops ......and here i go .......to end another day of "GODS KNOWS WHAT".